I’m not sure which is worse. Your disdain or my disbelief. Somewhere in-between there is a truth that coils like a serpent. The smell of cigarettes and ammonia. The bare linoleum floor. Sterile blue light and just outside crows huddle in the rain. You ask me, sneering, what I thought I was doing. And I can’t speak from the rage of it all. My fists clenched to whiteness. I must contain this. The taste of blood in my mouth. The hum and whine of corridor neon lights. I cannot look at you. Cannot. Instead I let the metallic blood coat my tongue. Breathe shallow, dark breaths. And wonder how the fuck I got here.